aliciaaaahere

do you's know the feeling when you love someone so much it hurts? well i do and its fustrating, so many questions go through my head... does he really love me, am i good enough for him, do i make him happy, it just annoys me soo much, i love him, and i always just seem to screw up, sometimes i think about how life would be if i wasn't here, would he be happier, would he be with someone else, would that someone else make him happier than i can? i cant help but think it, and i just dont know what to do anymore, sometimes i just wanna die :(

Yesterday i was in the bus line, and i had to get out so i walked, out to the front, on the way there i got stuck behind this guy, i asked him to moved, by he would, so i slightly pushed him outta the way, he was playing his stupid ipod touch, so when i pushed him i made him lose, so then what does he do, he punches me so hard i can't feel my arm like arrghh!! why i don't have a clue, but i pissed me off. :( but it's good i didn't retaliate, i didnt punch him back, it jusr shows that in stronger than him, when it comes to my temper :) xx alicia's academy to nowhere watch my on deviant :)

I realised something the other day, drawing is hard, very hard when you dont know how to do them right, but i also realised something, if you don't try you won't suceed. As someone once said 'The man who never had a chance. Never took a chance' So im just going to keep on practising my drawing and photoshopping and maybe one day ill be good at it till then, ill practise :) xx alicia's academy to nowhere